Since being hit with a major depression I have existed.  I have struggled to take that next breath and just hoped it would all end. When I started my meds I got a lift. Everything seemed a bit easier and well brighter. It isn’t a cure and that is coming home again.

I seem to be experiencing a dip. Is it a full slide? I don’t know. What I do know is that I have been in full reactionary mode for years. To be fair I just never had that energy to spare nor did I have an idea of what I was dealing with. Now though I do. So time it is time to be proactive.

It occurred to me today that I know what depression feels like but I have no idea what it IS. I hope that makes sense. Today I went searching for books on depression. Talk about a chore. I think I found one that will be a good starter. I need to have a better understanding of what I am dealing with in an academic way. My hope is that the additional insight will help me in dealing with my depression in a productive way. Hopefully I will gain the knowledge I need to come up with a plan for my life and understand the importance of following it.

I am fumbling around. The honeymoon is over with the meds. Now it is time to come up with a plan based on knowledge of what depression is and what works for me. It is time to get to work and take charge.

Have you read any books that helped you? What books would you recommend? I am taking recommendations!