Today my negative voice returned. You know the one who lives in your head and tears you apart at the drop of the hat?
She wasn’t around much in the most recent dip. Every once in a while she would pop in with a comment, but otherwise was blissfully silent. That all changed today. Taking a break at work she showed up with bells on. I was out back having a smoke, looking at my nails and suddenly there she was. Now I do an American manicure on my nails. Like a French but dark tips instead of white. I love it. Well today little Miss Negativity went to town on my nails, my shoes (HORROR) and the outfit I am wearing. When she started on my hair I ran back to my desk and stuffed my ear buds in. I have not missed her at all. Her opinions, nastiness and the fact that she is loud just kills me and makes me want to hide.
Interestingly I didn’t really notice that she was missing. I just enjoyed the time without her. Now that she is back I recognize that I can exist without her and that there are times when she is not around. All I have to figure out is how to send her loud obnoxious self on vacation again.
Interestingly enough, I also read a blog from the male perspective who has a similar voice called the “Tool”. I have found his blog to be quite inspirational and very helpful when it comes to goal setting. http://backofthepacker.wordpress.com/
I confessed to my family today that I have discovered I like putting myself first. I use to feel guilty for that. Then that negative voice would pop up. Saying it out loud has really diminished it. Good luck sending yours packing!
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Thank ET! That is awesome on the “confession” to the family. That is just awesome! xx
I have to smile when you said that you will be sending her on vacation — because I’m sure you will! One way ticket?
Oh yes a one way ticket! Some place far far away.
Thanks!
Not that I avoided this post or anything. Yeah, I did! I hope you send her faraway soon, for good *hugs*
I so understand the avoiding of this post! I am getting there with sending her packing! She doesn’t get to take the good luggage either! **hugs**