Today my negative voice returned. You know the one who lives in your head and tears you apart at the drop of the hat?
She wasn’t around much in the most recent dip. Every once in a while she would pop in with a comment, but otherwise was blissfully silent. That all changed today. Taking a break at work she showed up with bells on. I was out back having a smoke, looking at my nails and suddenly there she was. Now I do an American manicure on my nails. Like a French but dark tips instead of white. I love it. Well today little Miss Negativity went to town on my nails, my shoes (HORROR) and the outfit I am wearing. When she started on my hair I ran back to my desk and stuffed my ear buds in. I have not missed her at all. Her opinions, nastiness and the fact that she is loud just kills me and makes me want to hide.
Interestingly I didn’t really notice that she was missing. I just enjoyed the time without her. Now that she is back I recognize that I can exist without her and that there are times when she is not around. All I have to figure out is how to send her loud obnoxious self on vacation again.