Monthly Archives: April 2011

Proving a point

Posted on April 27, 2011 by

Sometimes I am just stubborn. I totally admit it and the fact that often it is tied to therapy. Right now I am so there. Last week my therapist made the comment that I looked eccentric and my style choices … Continue reading →

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Self sabotage

Posted on April 23, 2011 by

As I am sitting at work and dealing with another outage of inventory that appears to be due to either a computer glitch or a crazed sales person it occurs to me why I sabotage myself. Very simply it is … Continue reading →

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Doing your own thing

Posted on April 22, 2011 by

Like all of us I am a mix of contradictions. There is this myth that people are “one way”. Women should have long straight hair and be a size 2. All men love football and live to watch it. The … Continue reading →

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Being true to yourself: is it worth it?

Posted on April 21, 2011 by

Today, Thursday April 20th, I wore a new tunic that I recently purchased . This purchase is tied to dressing the way that I like to. As I have stated before I tend to forgo the trendy styles. It’s just the … Continue reading →

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Division is so easy

Posted on April 20, 2011 by

It amazes me how easy it is to divide people. I look at the news and see it. I listen to the radio, sermons in church or, this is my favorite, sports! Seriously there is nothing easier than dividing people. … Continue reading →

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Feeling stuck

Posted on April 18, 2011 by

This morning I posted my last back up post. I have nothing in the wings at this moment which is a wee bit scary. The problem is I feel stuck. I wish I could say that I am only feeling … Continue reading →

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Control, fear and pain

Posted on April 18, 2011 by

In the post “A desire for pain” I state that I have used self-harm for control. That got me thinking about where I am right now. See I have lost a good deal of weight, but recently I have been … Continue reading →

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A desire for pain

Posted on April 16, 2011 by

I have stated in past posts that I have self-harmed. I have cut and burnt myself for years. At the end of this month I will be one year self-harm free. I wish I could say it has been easy, … Continue reading →

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The appeal of the hijab and burqa from a westerners view point

Posted on April 15, 2011 by

This is going to probably cause some outrage and debate, but I am going to ask that you read the whole post before the melt down. There is an appeal to wearing the hijab and burqa. First let me ask … Continue reading →

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Some days the surprise is a panic attack

Posted on April 14, 2011 by

This morning I woke feeling good. Last night I slept like the dead. The feeling this morning was rested once I started going. That lasted until I was half way to work when a panic attack started. On occasion I … Continue reading →

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