I had my first appointment in three weeks the other night. I went in with a great sense of peace and a calm joy. In a really good place compared to where I have been. Sometimes it is best to stop while you are ahead.
First off I got crazy focused on my writing in the waiting room. When Pavel opened the door I jumped. Upside I didn’t throw the pen at him and squelched the scream. Thankfully I did phrase my response to the “Did I startle you?” with “Yep, but I was totally in the moment of what I was doing.”
Nice, right?
Great start to the session. I am in a better place. Acceptance, standing up for my needs more, compassion, talked about the blog and how I am working on my spirituality. I was smiling and the fidgeting was almost nil. I mean, seriously, it was impressive.
Anyone else hear that serial killer music in the background that is slowly building?
Then Pavel hits me with the question. What about dating? Sweet LADY! I didn’t stumble to badly and answered honestly. I admitted that I haven’t thought about it and while I do see it in my future I’m just not there yet. Does it stop there? Nooooo. Silly Carleen! The next question: What about sex?
What is up with this?!?! Why is this an issue? *ahem* Sorry.
We have a whole discussion that stemmed from the answer of “I’m not there. I need to get the spirituality settled first. I can’t explain it.” This is followed by being asked ‘why’ in eight million different ways and the request for an explanation in a four-minute time span which I did state I could not supply! Thank you very much!
The thing is I’m still in a good place. Yep, I have to work on it. I know that and some of his questions were valid. What I didn’t expect is that when I ran the idea of knocking therapy back to once a month he latched on to this issue and the horse trading started! Our compromise is two weeks. Which is okay as I kind of have some stuff running around in my head on this.
I have had experience with something along these lines. It is VERY frustrating to have someone poking around for problems when there aren’t any, or at least they are under control. They end up doing more harm than good by getting your brain headed down dangerous paths.
Casey that is so true. I find that this is probably one of my therapists FAVORITE issue. Amazingly this is the one issue I have never had a hard time shutting him down on. Hmmmm….. Thanks for getting me to realize that! Peace!
Therapist are people too, not to condone his actions. What I mean by this is he’ll have his own set of issues running him, if you know how to read the signs you can easily turn the tables.
I myself get therapy from a clairvoyant therapist, they go right to the issue, and not take months to figure out just who you are and what you’re about. The cost is about the same, and you get it on tape.
Blessings…
Oh he is totally human and luckily I realized that recently. Your therapy sounds interesting! I’ve never heard of it before. I would love more information. Blessings Christopher.
Interesting that you wanted to cut down the sessions upon your return to therapy after a three week break.
I also find that after I get used to not going to therapy I feel like cutting down when I go back.
In my case I never know if it’s a healthy feeling of wanting to grow out of therapy, or if it’s a sort of detachment that took place during the break, in which case it would be a defence mechanism.
Lo it is a known response of mine to cut back on the therapy pretty much all the time. Though I do have to say that part of it this time is that I feel the need to work on stuff myself and I my gut says my therapist can’t help. Now I just have to figure out what I mean so I can explain it to him. Peace.
walk in beauty my friend. Keep trusting your instincts and doing what you know is best for you. And, remember , to always be gentle with yourself.
Thank you Joss. It is interesting trying to trust my instincts again. Much love my friend. Blessings.