Two of the most difficult hurdles for me to overcome have been realizing I am worth it (pick one: healthy, sane, happy, loved, whole, unharmed) and that it is my responsibility to make it happen. That is a challenge when you are dealing with depression, bi-polar or any illness, but especially when dealing with ones that are so misunderstood.
The problem is that to accept that we are worth it has to come from inside. No one can instill that in us. People can help us to recognize it, but it is our decision. Can we truly accept that we are worth the effort? It is an effort. It is hard work, tears, foot stomping and at times annoying as all get out. In so many ways it is easier to give up. The trick is to not to. Take a break from it. I have been there and done that. It is totally okay, but what isn’t okay is giving up.
The responsibility part is in some ways the harder part of the equation. Some of us are tired of being responsible and some of us are new to the experience, but that is also ours. No way around it. If the disease is ours to overcome than so is the responsibility to do so. We need to be honest with our doctors and families. This is even the harder part. We have to fight for ourselves.
I know, but really we do. Others can, but the real difference comes when we do it. Again it is our responsibility.
The goal that we all have on some level is stability or recovery. To make progress we have to overcome the fear that is inherent, roll up our sleeves and get dirty. It is our lives we are fighting for.