The last session of group followed by a conversation with Ali, my sister, finally got the whole thing to click for me. What I mean is that I finally understand what I can get from this experience. Talk about a WOW moment.
So here it is: I am discovering that group is helping me to realize how far I have come. It is also helping me to define what I want for my future. Those two items are huge for me. See at times I have a hard time recognizing just how far I have come. I find it remarkable that 18 months ago I could not imagine not wanting to die every day. Seriously I never dreamed it wouldn’t be my first thought of the day. Now? Kids, really I don’t want to die. I want to see what every day has to offer. I want to cry and laugh. Be sick and healthy. I want to laugh, love and live. I realize that I may have set backs. I get that, but I know now that a setback isn’t the end of the world. I also understand that I can and am worth the effort of getting healthy.
My hope is that in this setting I can maybe help others and learn a lot more about myself. I don’t know how long I will be in this setting. It may only be the eight the sessions and I am okay with that. What I can say is that I am grateful for the opportunity.
Peace and blessings.