As a survivor of abuse there comes a time when you hit the land of “just because”. This may be one of the hardest things in dealing with your abuse.
I have always wanted someone to tell me why. To explain how it came to be. Not with statements like “he is evil”, but real answers. I have finally realized that there are none. There is no reason that will make sense of what happened.
Being in this land means looking at things in a different way. I have to realize that they happened and that is it. The emotions behind the abuse are actually a lot harder now, because I can’t logic my way around them. I have to realize that it happened because nothing.
What I can do is remember that I was a kid, I had no idea how to deal with any of it, and none of it was my fault. I didn’t ask for it and there is no excuse for it. I can’t make it as if it never happened, but I can continue to survive it. One moment at a time.
Peace and blessings.