As a survivor of abuse there comes a time when you hit the land of “just because”. This may be one of the hardest things in dealing with your abuse.
I have always wanted someone to tell me why. To explain how it came to be. Not with statements like “he is evil”, but real answers. I have finally realized that there are none. There is no reason that will make sense of what happened.
Being in this land means looking at things in a different way. I have to realize that they happened and that is it. The emotions behind the abuse are actually a lot harder now, because I can’t logic my way around them. I have to realize that it happened because nothing.
What I can do is remember that I was a kid, I had no idea how to deal with any of it, and none of it was my fault. I didn’t ask for it and there is no excuse for it. I can’t make it as if it never happened, but I can continue to survive it. One moment at a time.
Peace and blessings.
yup. Just remember this is not a roadblock on the path to healing but rather a steep hill to climb. You’ll make it, you are on the road and nothing is going to stop you now from reclaiming your self, your life, your joy, your meaning. Blessings my friend.
Thank you Joss! I do believe you are right! Peace and blessings my friend.
One moment at a time is all you can do. Thank you for sharing your feelings, I’m glad to have found your blog. Blessings, Joan
Thank you Joan! All we have is this moment. Peace and blessings!