I have discovered my heart’s desire. It is all easy after that right? BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
*That is the Universe laughing at me*
Over the weekend I worked on my studies. I even took Monday off to work on them. Why? Well I have discovered that finding your heart’s desire doesn’t translate to “it all coming easy”. In fact, the Universe appears to believe that to get the most out of it I need to struggle. Of course there is a lesson here.
I have suffered from a deadly condition. It is called “perfectionism”. This condition can stop you cold in whatever you are doing. You become frozen with the idea that nothing is “right” and that you can, have to, do better. Why do I call this deadly? This condition can kill any joy that you have. Some of the side effects are frustration and continuously going in circles trying to get ‘it’ just right. There is a solution though.
The fact that I have been suffering from a bout of perfectionism was brought to my attention by Ali. I was telling her how I was having problems with my research. The Universe, deciding she had gotten the message through to me, had Ali tell me to go with my instincts and that there is no right or wrong because it isn’t a question.
*totally a choir of angles in that moment*
This is so new to me, but what I have to remember is that this is MINE. I am not pursuing this path to please anyone else. This is my path and future. My work is to learn and make it mine. Not to impress anyone else.
That my friend is the reality of the situation.
Peace and blessings.