I received my work review last week. It was good, but there is a problem. I was asked to map out my next step in the company. Where would I like to move to? What department holds my interest? Houston, we have a problem.
I’m good at my job. I don’t give my life to it like I used to. In the past I defined my worth as a human being based on my job. Of course that didn’t really work. I ended up chasing the next milestone and dismissing the last as soon as someone complimented me on it. When you don’t believe you are worth anything a compliment means “It was too easy if I did it well”, so you see the problem. I was a full-blown workaholic. Now that doesn’t apply to me. Does this mean I don’t give a 110%? No, I still do, but I do it within 40 hours and never work off the clock anymore. It is best for all involved as I have a life now outside of work.
Unfortunately, that life is the problem. Or at least it is what is causing the problem. See, between us, I don’t want to shadow any one in my company. I don’t want to plan my future in a different department. I mean if I could shadow a Quantum healer via my company I would be all over it. Unfortunately I work for a telecommunications company. We haven’t expanded in to that.
Right now I am trying to figure out what I say or do with this request. I have to be true to myself, but I need this pay check for the foreseeable future. How long that is I have no idea. I have discovered that I have tremendous self-control and I am really proud of that. I managed to hold back the response of “Nothing here” from my boss. For this red-head that is very impressive.
Have you ever had this experience and how did you handle it?
Peace and blessings!