Yesterday was interesting. It was a day full of introspection, kind words from friends (you know who you are), frustration, group, goofiness, and an email. The result? A spinning head on Tuesday.

You all got to witness the introspection so we don’t need to revisit that. The frustration was tied to work. Being told to continue on a project, then getting the word to stop and get the changes to another team member before my work wouldn’t show up for 24 hours. It appears that there was a mess up on my part somewhere in that mix. I can’t even find it and that is the other persons issue. Not mine.

Group was interesting. We sat in a circle with our backs to each other. I have to totally fess up that I loved it! I was facing a corner, no one could see me and I made sure I joined in a few times. This set up let me stay in my own little world without getting questioned on it. Woo HOO! Seriously it was awesome! At the end I threw my chair back in to place and pretty much ran from the building. Nicely played!

Then there was the email. Of course it was from my friend and it was all over me. This person read the post where I discussed the abuse and it didn’t sit well. While not overtly angry it was a nice manipulative email which got me crying. Not the sniffling and a tear or two, but the full on bawling that makes it impossible to breathe. Was I played? Yup and I know it. The thing is that I did hurt this person and I hate that. I hate hurting people. I am struggling with the email. I have urges to use old coping mechanisms that I am doing my best to resist. Sigh…

Then there was the goofiness with friends on Facebook. No matter what people say about Facebook if you are blessed with connecting to good people it is a wonderful thing. That goofiness help last night. It was the break that I needed and support from awesome friends!

Yesterday was a day of life. There were up moments and down ones. They changed minute by minute and that is how it always is. The trick is remembering that.

Peace and blessings!