The thing with depression is that you have to always be vigilant. When you are doing well for a period of time it is so easy to miss (ignore) the signs that it may be visiting. I realized this morning that I am doing this. There are a couple of reasons for this.

One of the reasons is that who the heck wants the depression to come back? I mean the ignoring it is really the hope that it isn’t true. Who wants to acknowledge that it is back to roost? Me? No thanks. Another reason is that ….. okay really that is the only reason. At first  you truly don’t notice, but after a time you do realize that you are missing the warning signs. That is where I am now.

You can see yourself when dealing with depression, but the image can be blurry and surrounded by darkness.

Since this realization hit last night I have been flipping between honestly admitting that I am starting an episode and then denial in full force. Honestly though all the signs are there. The messiness (a big one for me), tired, grinding teeth, shutting down on communicating and not taking the best care of myself. What do I?

Well starting this morning I am going to take care of myself and tackle the things that I know make the slide more possible. I am cleaning the house and going to start taking better care of myself. There are going to be some changes back to the healthy life style that helps to keep the depression at bay. Working out, diet changes, more meditation, less computer games and the such.

If you deal with depression or any other dis-ease of this kind what do you do in this situation? Do you know the signs of it returning?

Peace and blessings.