I’ve been gone for a bit. While physically I have been by my computer daily, mentally I have been in the land of nothing. I am sure that folks who write can understand that statement. I do have to admit to struggling with coming back from that land.
It has been a challenging couple of weeks. I got my older brother’s book about Sean. It is a great book and touched me deeply. Then there was Memorial Day, a U.S. holiday to remember service members who have fallen in the line of duty, and that was followed by Sean’s birthday. Literally it was the next day. Those two days so close to each other always knocks me a bit. It does get better every year, but I honestly don’t think there will be a time it doesn’t affect me strongly.
After all of that fun Hugo, my 19 year old cat, died on June 2, 2012. I knew it was coming, but it still hurts. Friday night we had a conversation in which I told him that he didn’t have to stay for me. If it was his time and he wanted to go it was okay. I love him and will always love him. That moment was one of complete love. I never want anyone to suffer for me. I truly believe that there is something after this. What it is, I have no idea. That being said I don’t think there is a need to fear it.
The last item that has been on my plate has to do with my Mom. She has been drinking, which I knew and accept. I understand the reason behind. I not thrilled as I know that it isn’t the answer, but I can’t make her do anything. What I can do is lead with compassion. I am trying to do that every step of the way without falling into co-dependency. I will honestly state that I am not sure how I am doing with that.
So I am back. The writing will be increasing. Hopefully a daily blog, but we will see.
Peace and blessings my friends.