Well here I am . It has been a crazy month, couple of months, if I am honest. Which I
PA Sky line view of Pittsburg, 1907 (Photo credit: SnapshotsofthePast.com)
haven’t been lately. Honest that is. I have been having a rough time and doing everything that I can to ignore it. That included writing here.
Yesterday during my session with Pavel he asked what I have been writing about and I answered that I haven’t been. The question is why not. The answer is I wanted a break from everything. Life has been overwhelming lately. Unfortunately I have slipped in to some old coping habits. Shutting people out. shutting down my emotions. Just trying to put one foot in front of another to get to the next moment. I haven’t cut, but the thought is there. It is becoming more prominent.
So here I am. Kind of disgusted with myself for slipping back. Annoyed that I haven’t been writing as it helps me so very much. Realizing that wanting to curl up in a ball isn’t the best option. Not that it is totally bad, but I can’t let that be my answer to everything. Going forward there will be more writing. I need it.
Peace and blessings my friends.
Hey! I just stepped off that train of crazy and feeling good! Breaks are important but so is writing. Maybe you need a break from reflection? Write about the day , what happened what was fun..fun remember what that is? Breaks are the growing period. When you stop growing, then you are ready for more nourishment. Well, this is only truth for me. It maybe different for you. But that’s why we are all hear, to listen learn and support each other. Enjoy your rest, you deserve it
Robyn I do believe there is going to be more posts about the day. It is a great suggestion! Thank you my friend! Peace and blessings.
My dear Mary, I want you for a moment to morph into Mary of the Compassionate Heart. Imagine that you and I are facing each other, with a cup of tea, and I’ve just poured out to you all that has happened in my life in the past couple of months. I’ve concluded with “I’m kinda disgusted and annoyed with myself for falling back into old patterns through all of this”. And you reach out, cover my hand with yours and say……………………………
Oh Joss. I would tell you that you are doing your best. That when you look at all that you have gone through you are doing exceptionally well. That while you may have fallen back in to some old patterns you have not fallen in to all of them. Thank you Joss. It is so easy for me to compassionate when it comes to everyone but myself. Peace and blessings my friend!
and a big hug to you my friend. And don’t forget to check in with Mary of the Compassionate Heart every so often!