Well here I am . It has been a crazy month, couple of months, if I am honest. Which I
haven’t been lately. Honest that is. I have been having a rough time and doing everything that I can to ignore it. That included writing here.
Yesterday during my session with Pavel he asked what I have been writing about and I answered that I haven’t been. The question is why not. The answer is I wanted a break from everything. Life has been overwhelming lately. Unfortunately I have slipped in to some old coping habits. Shutting people out. shutting down my emotions. Just trying to put one foot in front of another to get to the next moment. I haven’t cut, but the thought is there. It is becoming more prominent.
So here I am. Kind of disgusted with myself for slipping back. Annoyed that I haven’t been writing as it helps me so very much. Realizing that wanting to curl up in a ball isn’t the best option. Not that it is totally bad, but I can’t let that be my answer to everything. Going forward there will be more writing. I need it.
Peace and blessings my friends.