You have heard the saying “The best laid plans of mice and men. Go often awry” from the novel Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck. I’m discovering that a truer statement has never been spoken! Another way to put it is “Oh how the Divine loves us and our plans”.
As I have stated in an earlier post I am back out dating. It has been a wee bit over a month since I joined the site Adult Friend Finder (AFF) and it has been crazy. Now my plan, yep I had one, was simple. Go out and get reacquainted with sex and my sexual side. The relationship aspect could sit in the corner for another month, year, and possibly a life time. It was a great plan! Seriously! I gave it a lot of thought and it worked out great for roughly two weeks. I had sex. I had different partners. I was discovering myself. Woo HOO! All going according to plan. Love when that happens.
Then the Divine must have decided that I had enough, because BAM!
That BAM is named Kin. Kin was also on AFF and a friend of a friend. One day our mutual friend walks past him and the computer, looks over and states “Hey! That’s Mary.” That my friends is what is called a wrap. All done. Game called.
See Kin had the same concept that I did. Go and have fun, but nothing serious. How is that working out for us? Great! We are currently in a relationship. Yup! The playing appears to be over and I am thrilled. I love having him in my life. I get that everything I have experienced has been to bring me to this place… To him.
There have been some crazy changes in my life. I hate being apart from him. It is a physical ache when I am. We seriously resemble a teenage couple when we are together. Annoying? Yep, but in such a great way. I won’t change any of this.
Is it occasionally scarier than crap?? Oh HELL yes! Even though I do find it scary when I take a step back I realize that my fear is based on old thinking. There is nothing to fear here. What happens will happen. I am going to enjoy the journey.
Now I won’t lie and say that I have been completely graceful on the acceptance side. I have looked to the Mother and given her the “Really?” routine. I totally admit that I
have. The funny thing is the message back is “Really Dear One. Really. My Plan, not yours”.
My latest mission is closing down my AFF account. I have to contact the men that I have met and let them know. Nope, I can’t just ignore them and hope that they go away. There are a few that I hope I will stay friends with. They are good people and I know that Kin will like them.
I’m learning to accept this new leg of my journey. One moment at a time. Occasionally tightening the seat belt and making sure the helmet is secure, but loving every minute of it. My plan is out the window, but I think I like this one more. Just don’t tell the Goddess.
Peace and blessings my friends!